Pushing away may seem like the actions of a selfish man,
A person who quite easily can't see his fingers from his hands.
An inner child who is only now learning how to crawl,
It's taken some time and some people to go through it all.
Self-control... easy to maintain if you're on your own.
Hard to sustain when you can't trust yourself, when you don't know yourself..
I guess I've got to walk this road alone.
I'd love to give you the reins like I did before,
consistently following, I don't need my control.
But I do, inevitably, need to get past the crawl...
Those affected... I can only show remorse...
The feeling is there but yet I can't help but lose it all..
I disconnect, I re-elect... I deject.
What have I been doing all this for?
For fuck sake Shannon, it's taken 8 years of this insane behaviour
It's about time you thought to save ya... Constantly justifying the same wager.
Juggling hearts as if it's your major.
When enough is enough, you need to obey her. She needs respect and self-love.. don't delay her...
Your higher-self stays in a different layer, especially if you can't overcome what makes you stay here.
Look I'm not asking you to stay detached, to stop the quest for love, not lust.
I'm asking you to respect what god gave you and let that magic shine through
like a UV light shows invisible ink! Your fingerprints...
The premise of your being, past your mind, your body.
Your soul needs the nourishment, just like everybody...
Just plant the seeds for your future.
Be patient to see them bloom and appear.
That will be your remedy, this will be your cure
So I refer back to the man that walked away,
was he being selfish or selfless?
Selfish for leaving the important things behind or selfless for seeing the damage he'd cause by sticking around
basically just attempting to avoid that pain and suffering... past his own disdain.
