Identity Crisis

I remember a time, 

Where i'd sit at the keyboard

and the words would flow like a wild waterfall into a lake during rainy season,

I would not even have to think but there the words would be. 

There in those words, secrets would unfold and I would emerge from those words with complete clarity of mind. 

But here I am... Struggling so completely.

My past, so deeply buried, left behind...

Yet still fresh in my mind, haunting me day by day...

Who was I? Who am I? Where did I go?

Who am I to become?

It's hard to let go of the past when you hold such strong emotions to certain things that happened.

Such strong emotions attached to events which honestly, you'd have done best to avoid. 

But hey, many poisons have that sort of addictive effect.

Maybe, I'm just being entirely vague about this situation. 

But how do I explain? How can I explain to people who are so incapable of grasping what it is I mean? 

The most frustrating part is that people don't even care to understand!

Look at this world, look at the injustices, look at the way people are.

What happens? People don't care anymore?

They don't even want to care, they don't even want to understand... because it means dropping any preconceived notions. They think It means abandoning the person we have grown attached to being. 

But it doesn't at all, it just means letting go of old pointless beliefs, getting rid of silly generalisations. Making room for something different. 

Funny, me talking about this. But I couldn't do it when I was put in that situation. It hurt too much. But maybe that hurt was just a sign that the others involved weren't capable of the same. Maybe we need a mass conscious shift into a state where we drop all of our preconceived beliefs. Stop generalising completely. Give people room to be more than what we pin them down to be.

If you followed this, then well done. If you didn't. Don't worry, most people haven't got a clue what I'm talking about most of the time.