The proxy pinnacle

It may seem at times that I'm not listening
But listen i have just wont take it in
As you may believe in order to see
I must see in order to believe
I am the master of my reality
No bother fussing over silly synchronicities
Life is best when i am free
So let me be and with you I'll be
Leave behind your forgotten splendor
Heaven exists where there is not
Where the clock strikes 4.20
I'll give you plenty
If that is what you want then that will be my decree
But i can see that's not for thee
I can see your thirst for more
A life of success and true amor
You're a softie really just like me
Guess that's why i tolerate your discrepancies
I know you care although i don't know why
I know you see through my lies
But thats just a hideous disguise to mask my truth, from you i hide
If i let you in you'll betray my trust
Knocking down my walls
Should not be a must
For they are forged with stainless steel, layered with concrete and bonemeal
They block out all to a certain extent
Intricate flowers decorate the cracks.
Bonified protection, my certain repent.

For you see I do not truly like the person I have become, I've come to terms with the things I've done, I'm content in knowing i am who i am but I'm not willing to look more into myself because in truth, deep inside hides hell.

For you my rock, i understand.
I'll be here to help you through your hell just as you have helped me to stand up and stop crawling.
Thank you dear, for your angelic hand
I needed it more than i care to admit.
This love is pure... no doubt of it.