Leaving

I opened my eyes to see
All we believe
A fictitious fantasy
Made into reality

My scars of you remind me
They remind me of the love that should have been
Of that journey I was unable to embark on

Was it wrong to leave?
Was it wrong to flee?
Right and wrong are determined by the individual
Right for me but ultimately
I gave in to my ego
I miss you

I will always miss you.

Decisions made too impulsively
Confused by the world
Confused by how to correctly be
Confused by differing personalities

Decisions not made by me,
But by the other me.

Will I ever be able to settle?
When each part wants different things?
This is why I ventured into polyamory...

Fucked if I know how to correctly be
Fucked if I know how to be obedient
Fucked if I know how to overcome the issues of the self

Fucked
If
I
Know
Fucked
If
I
Don't