Consequential loss

Give me a reason give me a reason
This isn't what i wanted
Won't you stay a while
Why would i have the audacity to think it of you
Why would i do it
Why why why
I don't understand
Where are my morals
What have i done
When will i stop
This will never be enough
It's all meaningless
I know i did the right thing for me
But even still it's not what i actually wanted
None of it is
And here i am
Sat
In my own guilt and shame
In my sea of disdain
And I am to blame
Entirely to blame
I shouldn't have met them
Why did i meet them
I can't fix this mess
I can't do anything about it
This is the price i pay for having been
Impulsive
And for
Flying too close to the sun

Send healing to those I've effected
It doesn't right this wrong
It doesn't write this wrong
Please

Find it somewhere deep inside you to forgive me

I forgive me
Although it's not been easy.

I vow never to do this to anyone ever again
I vow to take responsibility
And not let it get this far again