Sweet release

Filled with salty regret
And twisted by weighted shame
Pinned down by deep entangled rage,
Guilt... I am to blame...
Frozen by indecision
Always pointing in opposite directions
Equal pull on either side,
Nowhere to go, just remained stationary...
I've been stuck her for so long,
It's time something gave in.

Release, I desire,
From the chains of curses
I know that fear holds me back,
Not fear for me but fear for them,
But sinless, I won't look back...

Oh weighted shame, you've grown so heavy on my back
You give me aches that I can't stretch out,
My face turns purple under this pressure,
It does not serve me,
Let go of you I shall,
Shameful I will be no more,
Its the only way I can soar...

Salty regret, I look back at you,
I counter your salty taste with the sweetness of honey,
For regret doesn't have to be this way,
If I look back? What can I change?

Deep entangled rage,
Won't you show your face?
Lets talk it out and work together to get out of this place,
Fire, fuel me, free me from your wrath,
I control, I am your master at long last.

Guilt, oh dearest guilt,
You leave me crippled and afraid to make a sound,
But it's not possible to progress while you're around,
I forgive myself, I free myself,
Because I have come to understand that I must drop you dearest guilt in order to walk through this door.

And finally, Indecision... My good friend indecision...
Should I stay or should I go?
I've been contemplating this sign for hours and I've gotten nowhere,
Wouldn't you know?
Left, right, straight ahead or maybe turn around?
I failed to pick a direction because I fear being hell bound...
But the true hell is here... Just stood confused looking at these signs
With no clue of where to go or what to do.
Well no more shall this be the case,
I'm making the decision to decide,
So onwards I must go..
Fairwell dear indecision, I hope you find the way,
I'm done here now,

Why be afraid? Why keep holding yourself back?
Why not face it with honour and stare right into the black.
I'm not afraid anymore and I'm sure it's plain to see that the only thing I really fear is not meeting up to my standards of me!
So fear, this is what I'll do.
I'll look you straight in the eye
And proudly exclaim

Fuck you!

And forward I will go.